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ching hui
seventeen
part time chemistry and mathematics tutor
i just wish to dance one more time
in the studio that shines despite
being in the corner of TM third storey
with all my friends and an ever-smiling teacher
sweating our way, marching in unison
seconds inches closer to our dreams.
quit kissing the wall
or drilling your head into the ground
have your backbone straightened up
and face your inner devils
Friday, September 08, 2006
The week was great
except for today i guess.
Work was totally fantastic
school as well.
I'm starting to behave a little less anti-social now.
Making new friends,
smiling more.
I think dance is my mental remedy,
or.. maybe my life's remedy.
I've known many people in my dance class.
We watched one another dance
and clapped for one another everytime.
JP is a great male dancer,
I enjoyed watching him dance.
Work was great,
I've got to know the other tutors in the Lab
and I've got to know a few other tutees too.
One of my classmates who dropped
Summer Chemistry II class was one of them.
I'm more than willingly to help him with their subjects.
Everything was ok
until when I started to drift off.
I wasn't paying much attention during Modern II
and was picked on so many times.
And as the picking on goes on,
I just gave up doing the combination.
Perhaps marked through
a few front pieces of the combination,
then walked the rest.
Don't know what is with this attitude,
maybe..
I'm not meeting any of the expectations
I've been setting for myself.
I'm not determined these few days
not thrifty enough
not controlled enough
not discipline enough
not hardworking enough.
disoriented
everything
meals
daily activities
school
emotions
behaviour
but fortunately
work is still organised the way I like it to.
When will I change
Into something better
something more desirable
more pleasant to the eye
to the ear
to the earth
The desire is there,
but the will isn't.
Just hope my new friends will motivate me enough
to push myself up again.
And I'll take off from there myself.
& 4:45 PM
rained... ?
Monday, September 04, 2006
nice and slow days will bepretty much over after today.Sept 4, which is today, is Labor Day in America.Country wide day off.Get another extra day for the weekend.Ask me if my week has gone wellyes It hadexcept when Professor Josewho teaches absolutely nonsensical modern dancestarted to get touchy and wrapped my wrist in his right arm.if there's a next time,I really can't guarantee his subsequent appearance in classas a humanperhaps a spirit instead.days are surprisingly going back on track.i'm exercising againwhat a miracleHave been controlling calories intake rather than outputto maintain my weight.I guess now it's time to do both.got stabbed by cherylhowever, that stab feels sweet.(: here goes.7 RANDOM facts about me:1. I love to dance2. I am a taiwanese and am proud of that3. I wear retainers every night4. I have short appendages, natural adaptation to cold weather5. I don't like to study6. I am a control freak7. I want to go back to Taiwan and to Singapore7 things that scare me:1. Me getting fatter2. Pimples3. Perverts4. GPA less than 4.05. Eeky uncles with dirty hair6. Family chaos7. Getting lost in America7 favorite songs:1. ειδΉε€2. Stick with you3. Find the way4. Brand new world5. Mr. Q.6. Ouran Host Club OST7. Nana (anime) OST7 things I like most:1. My ballet friends2. Free home returning tickets3. Me getting slimmer4. Intensive dance trainings5. Pointe shoes6. Paydays7. Food7 people to do this:1. Shi Jie2. Ya Qi3. Simone4. Yiling5. Jing Ying6. Sarah7. Xin YiThat's about it for today.The next 15 weeks of Fall is gonna be hecticTake me away on to the official battle groundI'll fight you till one of us drops
& 6:47 AM
rained... ?
